Friday, June 24, 2011

Whew - June Has Been A Tough One!

Over the last few months, we took a short break from actively networking and going through all of our adoption marketing options because it felt like we were running on a treadmill. Since we had the option to try another fertility cycle, Melissa decided that we should go for it. After all, even though the chances were slim that it would work, doing something was better than doing nothing.  So, we went through the process, the pre-testing, the shots (over 90), the embryo transplant, and the waiting, waiting, waiting. We were pleasantly surprised when we found out that Melissa was pregnant. What a great feeling! After the positive blood tests and great HCG levels, we were certain that Melissa was on her way. We were happy, nervous, scared, excited. . .But, of course, it wasn't to be. 6 weeks into the pregnancy, Melissa had a miscarriage. We often wonder why we are on this type of a journey when others seem to have it so easy. We don't dwell on it, but it is a bit curious. Did we do something in a previous life? Are we on this journey so that we can help others? This ongoing experience also makes me keenly aware that we never really know what's going on in other people's lives. Sure, folks may seem happy on the outside - may appear to have everything going for them. . .but, they may be struggling with difficult stuff at home. If you were to meet Melissa and me on the street, you'd never know our story (unless of course, you've read the blog or seen the NBC spots!).

In any event, I appear to be rambling now. . The culmination of our most recent loss happened in June. It's been a rough couple of weeks, and boy are we happy that June is over next week!

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Life is Like The Lottery

It's a good thing we don't buy a lot of lottery tickets, because as it turns out, we are not very lucky. Of course, we were super lucky when it comes to how we came to adopt Noah. But, the rest of the time, our luck has not held out very well. Today, we found out that another option we pursued to complete our family did not come to fruition as we had hoped. We are both disappointed, but there's nothing we can do. . .the reality is that it feels like this whole process is like trying to win the lottery. Very few people win, and the rest keep trying and trying. . .